Wednesday, April 9, 2008

First at the Last...

Performance for Singapore Recreation Club 29/June/2007

This performance was something special for me. It was my last public performance for NTU ACES. Having been involved in over 50 performances in my past 3 to 4 years, I still felt stress with this last one. This performance had to be one of the most pressurizing I have done. It was the first time I was going to attempt a cupie in a performance routine. I wanted to go out with a bang.

But sadly, I did not manage to do my cupie in that performance. I guess the stress is getting to me too much. It was my first try, and also my last, at my last performance. I remembered that snow was not willing to do it at first, but it being my last performance, I kept insisting and plead her to do it. I was desperate.

This performance was also the performance that I did my first standing back tuck with jeans and all on hard concrete, the one I did at Clementi MRT station. Why is it that it always has to be till the last moment before one comes up with things he never thought he would ever do? Is it so that he will not have any regrets?

But what about if you failed at your last attempt? Does it signal that the time is not ripe yet, that you still have unfinished business for it to be the last? Well I guess I will not find out until the moment comes. Will I go for it one more "last" time?

This story just tells me there is no such thing as the last time, there is always unpredictable number of times, and the road is never ending, unless you decide to end it yourself. It is about how much you wanted it.

Hopes and dreams are always out there to be achieved, you never know when you are not going to make it, unless you give up on your on hopes and dreams. The last time may very well also be your first time. Never quit on your passion, for one day your dreams will be realised in one form or another. You just have to believe!

P.S> I used to tell myself that I will only quit when I did the toss cupie. (It was at a time when I can only do very basic stuff, and I never thought that I will be able to achieve something like the toss cupie at that time.) Now that I have achieved toss cupie, I still felt like there is alot of other stuff for me to learn. I will not quit yet. Do not set limitations for yourself, free your mind, you can achieve anything. Reach for the universe....

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